"Love Like Crazy": I've been out of commission. But for good reason! ;)

So instead of rambling on and on about why I haven't blogged in what seems like years (which I will do later in the post), I'll just get to the overall summary of the past month and a half. So of course Jaycee is 23 MONTHS OLD, and for hormonal reasons (that I'll share later ;) ) I have not handled her being almost 2 well at all!! I know it's just a number, but not being able to say she's "one" anymore soon hits me hard!!

I do have to admit though- we are having A BLAST!! We have been busy, busy, and she is just getting more and more fun to "spend" time with!

I absolutely love this picture below. The dog was literally pulling her, but she giggled so hard the whole time!!! She LOVES walking the dog. I can't wait until she gets to take over full responsibility!! They really are BFF!!

And of course, at some point in the last month or so, Halloween flew right by us!!! We had fun going to "Boo at the Zoo" and also our church hosted "Nut Night" which THOUSANDS of people came out for food, rides, games!! It was a blast!!

Below is Josh and Jaycee while we were on the "tilt a whirl" at Nut Night. She absolutely LOVED it. Of course, ours didn't really whirl much. I laughed b/c everyone else was spinning there's as fast as they could, and we just kinda sat there and let Jaycee enjoy the ride!! HAHA!

There was waaay to much to look at for her to get a good picture!! But I sure do love my bumblebee!! :)

Getting to actually trick or treat this year was so much fun too!!! Once she got the hang of things, and realized they were giving her candy, we would leave one house and she would yell, "MORE MORE!" HAHAHAHA.

She'll be 2 in just 2 1/2 weeks and I guess I have to admit, my little girl is growing up!! :)

And since I'm not handling well that she's "technically" not a baby anymore...guess what we did...

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Oh yes we did....

WE ARE EXPECTING!!!!

We found out on Oct. 2nd! I had gone to WalMart, and while I was there, I went ahead and bought some tests, telling myself this time I wasn't going to pee on them every 2 hours, and since I was still 6 days before my period, I told myself to wait 2 more days!! (Of course if you know me, that didn't happen!)

I came home, and IMMEDIATELY hid them from Josh! Yes, I did. He gets so mad when I buy them, b/c he knows once I buy them, until red flow arrives...our bank account diminishes a few dollars every day!! :)

ANYWAYS, odd thing is- we were watching "Knocked Up!" No lie. It was 2 in the afternoon, I had to pee and since a "free" one came in my pack this time, I rationalized the fact that I could "burn" the free one and then not test for a couple of days!!

Low and behold...the pictures above, are the pictures of me the day we found out!! I don't know about you, but being 6 days early at 2pm. I thought the line was pretty dark. I peed, sat it down, and immediately saw something forming. The "oh crap, oh crap, oh crap!" kept coming out of my mouth!! hahaha. I SERIOUSLY was not expecting it. Excitement, joy, thankfulness, the already "mommy worry" all came at once!!!

So what's kept me out of commission??? There are not numbers for how often I've been sick this pregnancy! 6 weeks greeted me with sickness beyond knowledge!! I am currently 11 weeks, and am JUST NOW not vomiting more than once or twice a day!!

I wasn't sick at all with Jaycee. Felt wonderful, felt great, on top of the world. This pregnancy has had me on the couch, head barely off the pillow, trash can in reach, and still having to care for a toddler!!! Can you imagine the tears that I have cried?!!? hahahaha.

I have been awe struck at how sick you can be while pregnant, and granted it might be worse b/c I'm trying to care for a 2 year old, but oh my gosh!! For WEEKS (no exaggeration), if Josh came home and Jaycee was dressed and fed- we had accomplished the day!! Me showering, getting dressed, eating- I can honestly say I don't know if I did any of those things for days in a row!!!! Josh would come home and DO EVERYTHING, and I would sit on the couch and watch him and cry out of guilt but there was physically nothing I could do about it. I was a puking zombie!!! I have to have the best husband alive!! He stepped up to the plate and took care of me, Jaycee, the dog, this house- for not just a day- but for weeks!!!!! I owe him big time!!

I am finally starting to feel better!!! And finally am returning to feeling like a mom and a wife again!! :) I went to the doctor on Nov. 4th and this is what we saw...